Tuesday, May 29, 2007

I lost HER (There are times when you have to let go)

It all started when we shifted our project to the new building. If I remember it right, it was February of 2007. The moment I set my eyes on her I knew that she was and what more could I ask for when my parents nodded yes. My friends were all excited and knew that, she was just the right one for me and even they too nodded yes to the relationship.

I even consulted my roommate who already had one. Even he said, "Go ahead Saju, make her yours".

So the affair began. The only one affair that I've ever had and had remained part of me..............until yesterday.

Her inviting looks and her profile figure is what attracted me the most. Her voice was sweeter than anything that I'd ever heard from. Throughout my project she was a reason for envy and a source of inspiration for those who didnt have 'ONE'...............until yesterday.

Even when I got her to change her looks from tanned to fair or fair to tanned, she remained the same voluptuous beauty as ever. Every now and then she would call out to me and I would go mad and run up to her. She was everything that I could dream of in my situation...............until yesterday.

I remember the special moments that we had together, the games we played and the talk we shared. At times I've even shouted on her. But she used to understand me at all times. I just knew where to touch her and press her, to turn her 'ON' and she wouldn't even have to utter a word. I could even TURN HER ON with my eyes closed...............until yesterday.

I accept that even we've also had our ups and downs. At times when I desperately want to talk, she would not respond and that would be utmost irritating. It has even happened vice versa, when she called out to me and I purposefully ignored her or didn't hear her call, either way she 'MISSED' me. But then if it was not for her, how could I have survived? A few glitches are acceptable in a relationship. After all she was all mine, only mine...............until yesterday.

We used to get along so each other and be together always, that at times my friends used to get irritated and would say, "She is yours anyways! Cant you be alone atleast in the ODC?". I know ki we used to get carried away at times and tend to ignore my friends. But, then thats was lovers do! Right?...............until yesterday.

We used to travel together, slept, ate, wept together...............until yesterday.

Within this short duration she got very close to my parents that they would call her every morning and talk to her. She used to be the first person to receive any news from me and then it was she who would tell it to my parents. I knew ki even some of my friends used to ogle at her, but I believed that she would remain faithful.
I used her day and night and she was happy with me...............until yesterday.

But little did I know that my roommate used to use her when I wasn't around. She had tried to tell me every time I went near her, but I couldn't understand her signals. Stupid me.
He loved her too, after all he is the one who motivated me to go for her.

Now, she is gone...............forever. I had taken her for granted. Careless me, I failed her.

I hope she now has a better life with him and keeps my baby happy. I'll miss you my love.





MY ROOMMATE STARTED USING MY MOBILE FROM YESTERDAY.


4 comments:

Adarsh A. Varghese said...

Well, all I can say is that you are not the first person to go through something like this. I have friends, and very close ones to who went through similar phases. I guess you gotta move on with life...I know its easy to say...but thats what you gonna end up doing...moving on.

Anonymous said...

IF you still love her, there's no moving on!!! you have to fight to win her back SCR... There is no way you can be content with whats happened to you and how your rommmate has cheated on you. You have to fight to get her back; no compromises... you didn't fail her; just got a lil laid back..

"she can have a better life with him and he keeps your baby happy" ehh..? what kind of an attitude is that? WAKE UP!!! MUSTER COURAGE!!! FIGHT!!! GET HER BACK!!!

Anonymous said...

I always loved you. But you never realized. And heart breaking to hear that you loved someone else.

Anonymous said...

good suspense, that. unfortunately for me, i pressed the 'end' key on my keyboard as soon as i got onto the page. so lost the suspense